I have to write all of my thoughts down before I forget them all. If it’s not written down, all of my impressions/feelings/incites flee within days. I wish I wasn’t like that. I wish that I could retain the “who said what” at conference and what scripture made the difference when Matt was off at Brother’s Weekend on a warm beach on an island off of the Texas coast while I was at home in Utah with the kids in the middle of a snow storm, feeling like things were a little unfair. It was a simple scripture- where the four sons of Mosiah were at a crossroads and were getting ready to go their separate ways into the unknown. They were given a blessing just before they left and there was a phrase that left me with the impression that there was no room for contention, that Matt and I should support one another. I have looked many times for that scripture but I can’t find it anywhere- but I do know that I needed it when I read it and that this experience has great meaning to me. I wish I would have written it down though…
So here are my thoughts lately (only a few of the many that keep swirling around). The first one is from a talk by President Uchdorf called “Of Regrets and Resolutions.” Last month this talk was the focus of a Relief Society lesson. It left such a strong impression on my soul. President Uchdorf shares the story of a nurse who cares for those that are terminally ill. Before they died she would ask them this question, “Do you have any regrets?” Most would respond with one of these three things.
I wish I had spent more time with the people that I love.
I wish that I had lived up to my potential.
I with that I had let myself be happier.